想让你知道我的心在想什么!

突然间没有安全感的我！

复杂的心情>.<

害怕与担心！

想了很久到底要不要写着一篇～

最后我还是决定写着一篇～

我的心情实在的很乱！

那个未久的感觉仿佛又回来找我了～

我真的好害怕这种感觉!!!!

我也好害怕我自己的第六感！

现在的你回去了读书生活，

而我却为我们还是我为自己的未来打拼！

老实说，

我真的很害怕失去你！

虽然是我们的感情已有3年多了！

但是我还是对我自己没有信心！

我会有这样的想法，

那是因为我怕了！

我真的好希望你能够很爱很爱我！

没有你在我身边我真的很没有安全感！

我不喜欢这种感觉！

因为那种恐怖真的是你无法想象中的恐怖和黑暗！

你知道吗？

我现在一边写一边的落泪～

宝贝真的很希望老公你能够实现你对我的承诺！

因为宝贝真的真的很爱你！

你应该知道我对你的爱有多么的深！

最近发生的事情我会对你那么的冷淡和生气那是因为我真的很介意也很在乎你为什么要这样！

所以我才会这样的对你！

心的痛和心的怀疑也是我对你的在乎！

因为我不想你对我有所隐瞒！

我也不想让那些事情来伤害我们的感情！

我知道我很自私！

你不喜欢我和谁联络我就没有联络，所以我也希望你能够为我想！

我不喜欢你和谁联络希望你也能办得到！

因为我要的就是你给我的安全感！

而不是那种莫名的担心和怀疑！
我也知道有时候自己真的太多疑心了！
这我也不想的啊～～～
希望老公你能了解我的心！

老公，
你真的是我的未来吗？
你真的是会实现你对我许下的承诺说要给我一辈子的幸福吗？
老公我真的很希望我这一辈子都有你的陪伴！
也希望老公你真的真的很爱我！

p/s: 老公，宝贝真的很爱你！

Pls Dun FLOOD at SEGAMAT!!!! Because my HuBby is There!!!! PLS~~~

Dear I Miss U so much!!!

Raining non-stop today from early in the morning till NOW!!!!

God!

Pls let the rain STOP......

Because of this Let my Hubby hometown get flood now!!!

I'm dam worried about my HuBby and his family.

Worried until I keep updated those who live at Segamat for the latest news.

God....

Pls dun let this happen again!!!!!!

Pls stop raining!!!!!!!!

I really worried my HuBby so much~~~~

I scare everything!!!!!

Izzit the SUN took too many sleeping pills?

Why didn't come out this few days?

Just let the rain drop non-stop!!!!

Dear God!

Pls~~~~~

I beg You pls~~~~~

Dun let my HuBby and his Family also all Segamat ppl get into this trouble....

Pls let the rain stop now>.<

Guys,

Once I know the bridge is reach the dangerous level I start to worried and cry....

I scare!

I scare my Hubby get hurt>.<

I scare my Hubby his own safety.

God!!!

Pls la.....

Stop the rain pls~~~~

Pls dun let my HuBby get any hurt>.<

Pls~~~

Dear HubBy I really really worried you so much!!!!!!!!!!  

不知该放什么标题～

Smiling Angel❤

我很开心因为我的成绩比我想象的好很多^^

但是另一方面还在犹豫着是否要继续还是不要>.<

如果不继续的话我就会开始我的第一份生意。

但是需要时间来筹备～～～

原本今天很开心的，因为成功毕业!!!

就是因为你!!!

莫名其妙的生气骂人还恶人先告状说是我!!!

好心你自己看回去!!!

是你无端端骂人先的!!!

还说是我!!!

每次就只会说我，你到底有没有想想看到底是谁先!!!

自己心情不好就不要把气出在我身上!!!

不知道就乱骂!!!

对我是很的空，但是我一个礼拜得空另一个礼拜不得空啊!!!

我要做就要做到漂漂亮亮!!!

每次就只会说我自己的事情自己不处理要经过你传话，

是你问我才和你说的!!!

说了又说我自己不会告诉她!!!

真的不知道你!!!

我就这样给你无端端骂一轮!!!

说不出的感觉～

笑容为谁而有？

其实我心中有好多好多的说不出的事情！
因为我根本不知道要怎样的表达！
我是一个不善于表达自己心中的话的人！

其实我真的是很不开心！
就几天的时间罢了～～～
却可以改变一切！
虽然我口头上是答应，但是我心里面冲满了挣扎和犹豫！
其实我真的逼不得已我才答应！
但是我也没有反对只要安分守己我都能接受！
你开心就好！

其实我真的很不习惯这样的改变！
因为让我抓莫不定！
让我无法的在完完全全的了解你！
也只会让我觉得彼此越来越远！
刚才的一举一动让我很心痛！
要我弄的又是你，不要的又是你！
真的不知道你想怎样！
请你多点明白我好吗？
不要再对我有所猜测！

我真的不知道自己要怎样！
我真的只想好好的爱！
我真的只想好好的生活！

天，请你让我平平静静的过我想要的生活好吗？
如果不能就让我死了算！
死了就一了百了！！！

真的想为自己加油！
但是我没有勇气！！！
我很笨很傻对吧？？？
因为这就是我！！！

原来爱情不是每个人想象中的那么简单!

♡我爱的还是他♡

原来爱情不是每个人想象中的那么简单!

它需要经历里很多很多的事情。。。

很多的恋情经得起考验却经不起平凡。。。

就因为这样导致分手的下场~~~

今天的我上了一堂人生中无法忘记的课！

也让我深深地记载脑海里面！

原来爱是需要放手，让他自由让他开心！

和他的恋情长达2年半，现在的我才发现自己有多么的可悲！

多么的恶魔！

反省了自己对人处事的行为后才发现自己拥有那么大的缺点！

原来爱是要放手才可以走更远的路！

我终于明白这道理了!

对不起让你受尽我给你的痛苦!

在这里我要像你90度鞠躬道歉！

前面的路好有很遥远，

我们谁也不知道我们下一秒会发生什么事情。。。

或许我们会就这样莫名其妙的死了>.<

所以一定要珍惜眼前的事情！

因为有些事情一转身就是一辈子的事情~~~

我不想错过任何的一样事情！

我知道我很贪心，但这也证明了我珍惜我所有现在拥有的事情！

我真的不想让自己遗憾终生！

所以我很努力维持现在我拥有的一切！

因为我不想自己亲手毁掉我自己拥有的幸福！

我爱的还是他！

人生就是这样！

一定有起有落~~~

没有事情是平平凡凡的！

每一件事情都得经过考验！

所以我也应经得起任何的风风雨雨来证明我对他的真心！

爱一个人真的需要体谅和信任！

爱他就要接受他的所有！

不要试这去改变他而是接受他！

也不必要去改变自己！

因为他爱的本来就是那样的你！

为何要去改变呢？

只要不去做对不起自己另一半的事情就行了！

做好自己的本分最重要！

但是身为女生就应该把自己打扮得漂漂亮亮！

我知道我自己真的不会打扮！

所以我回去试这尝试把自己弄得漂亮一点让你觉得我有在进步而不是在退步！

记得我爱的人永远都是你！

Finally Finish my Final For this Semester!

The tired face of me>.<

OK!

Now is should be the good news to me! That is:

Finally Finish my Final^^ Can enjoy my holiday start from this moment....Feel so relax now cause no need to study about 3weeks....So I can enjoy the moment with my Lovely HuBby❤ again! muacksss~~~ During this holiday still dunno what should we do....still thinking.... maybe will help my HuBby clean his room first [maid>.<] lo... after that will go to take many many photo with my HuBby❤ haha... really can't wait the time le.... want to go out buy many many things that I want it^^ want shopping and dating with my HubBy❤ haha~~~ I crazy already.... cause no more stress already!!!! haha...... Love my HuBby❤ so much~~~ Guys tell you all something my HuBby❤ suddenly jealously... Dunno why when I know it I feel worried cause scare my HuBby❤ will think many...but after that I was feel so happy because my HuBby❤ jealously because of me^^hehe.... This mean that my HuBby❤ he still Love Me deeply❤ anyway just want to let my HubBy❤ know that I will Love you Forever! muacksss~~~❤

Guys if you got follow up my blog you all will know my Dear friend has pass away on this Monday night....Hope he can Rest In Peace....Friday morning he will be burial so all of his friend will accompany him to the his final journey...Sorry that I can't attend>.< Rest In Peace my Dear Friend Zen Lim Jian Da!

我的梦想？？？

被人偷拍>.<

我的梦想是什么？？？
其实从小到大我都有一个很想完成的梦想。。。
但是自己却没有那个胆量去尝试。。。
或许我的梦想有点让你们意想不到或是你们会觉得我很不实际>.<
但这确是我从想到想在的梦想>.<
今天的我会在这里宣布那是因为我想听听你们的意见。。。
或许我会听到我不想听到的意见，但是我还是会接受。。。
那就是~~~~
我想成为演艺圈的人。。。
很惊讶吧！！！
没想到我怎么不要脸哦>.<
其实我承经放弃。。。
但是又有一些的事情让我更加的想望着方向走。。。
或许我真的很不之量力，但是我真的很想尝试>.<
我想让全世界的人知道有我这个人存在！！！

我家人其实还蛮支持我的。。。
要我去完成我的梦想！！！
因为他们知道有人找我去试镜要启发我。。。
但是我却退掉了。。。
我很没有胆去尝试。。。
因为我害怕失败！

我该怎样办呢？
我该不该去坚持我的梦想呢？？？
还是我应该脚踏实地的为我毕业之后铺路而不是在发明星梦>.<
好啦~~~
我知道我好不要脸>.<
因为我更本不够资格>.<
haiz~~~~
算啦>.<
还是实际点吧！！！

Angel醒醒吧！！！
不要在发梦了！！！

我不见了我自己！

❤

最近的我不知道发生了什么事情!
我的脾气越来越坏!
动不动就发脾气!
我的老公他都觉得很我很奇怪!
我自己真的不知道自己到底发生了什么事情...
这根本不是我自己...
我开始害怕这样的我...
因为这样的我,让我自己觉得很大压力...
有时候还让我喘不过气来...
我真的好想变会以前的我...
以前的我多么的单纯和简单...
现在的我却变得很凶恶和复杂...
Angel你去了那里???
快回来我的身边...
我真的快疯了...

p/s:I want my Love❤

Moody..........

❤Angel without Wings❤

My mood wasn't good...
Felt so heart broken....
Can't understand....
Can't Forgive....
always become the person who get hurt deeply....
No one will know what I want what I needs.....
I really can't understand why I always keep let people hurt???
izzit I born to this world just for get hurt only???
I'm human....
I still have my own feeling....
Please don't treat me as what you want....
I'm not your DOG....
Please think clearly before you said....
Please think clearly you never did before....

If not....
You are not qualify to saying me....
Because no one can judge me......
Expect GOD!!!!

p/s:
I hate the way you treat me!!!

You Are my Forever Biiii❤

My feeling quite complicated....
my final make me insane....
I really want to give up my study....

Today 5.30am
My Biiii came to fetch me go to college for my test....
Firstly we go to buy McD for our breakfast....
After that, as usual go to Biiii house to having our breakfast...
After finish our breakfast....
Biiii want me to study for my exam....
I told my Biiii that I can't study anymore...
I felt sooo stress....
I cry in front of him again....
My tear drop down again....
He was get shock....
Biii was hug me tightly and console me....
After few minute I felt better.....
But I have no choice...
I still need to study and sit for this paper....

My Biii always is mine supporter.
I really Love the way he support me...
I will never forgot what he done for me before....
It will always in my Heart....
I will remember FOREVER in my mind....

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

❤You Are My FOREVER HubBy in My Life❤
❤I will Treasure everything that You Gave Me❤
❤You Are Apart Of My Spirit❤
❤Love You❤
❤Miss You❤
❤muackssss❤

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

p/s: is time to study my Law Paper...>.<
Although my Biii just send me back....
But my Heart now is keep missing my Biiii...

My recently Life❤

izzit my blog is growing mushroom???
who can tell me???

YES and I AGREE my blog is growing mushroom now!!!
sorry that I always lack of updates....>.<
How was my life for this few day???
should say good or bad???
haha....
Myself also don't know....
my life for this few day is quite complicated....
many thing was happened quietly...
OMG...
How should I settle it nicely???
ermmm....
I think I won't settle it...
cause those thing quietly came then it should be quietly go...
Just pretend don't know anything...
because like that I just will happy...=)
ok....

❤The Fatty Angel❤

How was my day with my ❤Bi❤....
Both of us is Fine here....
now my Bi is working as part-time again....
but after finish my final....
I will also work as part-time together with my ❤BiBi❤....
My Bi is already help me find the job...
so just need to wait until my final finish then just can start to work....
and it also my 1st part-time job...

You all sure will think WTH I'm doing it....
And will think izzit I'm a princess....
20 years old just start to work as part-time....
LoLx...

You all know why now I just start to work as part-time???
because since February until now my DAD is fall in sick...
and always need to pay some of the fees to he medicinal and others....
Although my DAD is boss...
but my DAD still need to give he workers salary....
so where is the money should come from???
So I already think clearly...
Go to find some part-time job to help a bit my dad....
Although work as part-time is not earn so much....
but at least I no need take any pocket money from them again....
I can earn myself....
But I also hope my DAD can faster get well soon....

When my ❤BiBi❤ know about it...
he keep help me to find some event job that can work together with him....
so that he can take care of me=) my ❤BiBi❤ really is a nice person....
but sometime he also bad on me>.< no choice....
cause in this world don't have any human is perfect ten...
so we also need to show our understanding....
Already long time didn't take any photo with my ❤BiBi❤
and now here is our recently photo....
I just show some of it....
still have some but I just keep it=)

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

❤Our silly Face❤
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Always❤to be with You
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

❤My HubBy is cute at this photo❤
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

❤BiBi is try to kiss my❤
❤but mission is failed❤
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

We are always the ❤Happiness Couple❤ in the world...
Although we had argument...
But we always solve it nicely...
Once we argue our Love will go truth more deep for both our heart.....
We will more ❤Love❤ each other and more ❤Treasure❤ each other....

Thanks For the Caring...I'm Fine=)

Guys,
I'm really ok now...
Thanks for your's all caring....
I know my previous post let you all worried about me...
But I'm really ok now....
I really can't imagine why yesterday I will doses like that....
I know that my act was scare you all...
but yesterday I really drank whole bottle of wine and beer....
and get drunk a bit....
haha....
Maybe I too suffer with my life...

Guys,
don't think is my relationship problem o....
because is no...
I know some of you's will think is my relationship problem...
but is not...

haha...
my blog not just for relationship only....
still will write some family, friend or others.....
maybe might less on those post la....
LoLx....

yesterday post is my family problem.....
So I just can pretend quiet and do nothing....

anyway....
Thanks for who are send the comment for me and care about me....
I'm fine now.....
Sorry that I was let you all worried about me.....

p/s: Hope will solve it nicely without argue...
LoLx

My Tears...>.<

Crying now....
Tears drop down again.....
my tears always easily to drop down...
And I was drunk....
Drank whole bottle Red Wine and few bottle beer....
just want to anesthetize myself....
don't know why recently I felt so stress with my everything....
I really suffer and lonely on it....
Let me can't breathe anymore....
I just wanna a simple life...
why so hard to achieve it....
why???
who can told me???
I really need some time to relax my mind....

我哭了...
但是我也醉了...
我喝了一整瓶红酒和啤酒....
好多的心事想说想告诉你...

P/S: just wanna you always beside me and support me....
can I?

My Feeling NOw....>.<

how am I supposed to do live without you
I really felt suffer with something....

Guy...
Sorry because I Neglecting my blog again this few day....
because I was busy with my assignment.....
Now I just left one assignment...
ok....
back to the topic that I want to post for today....
on this few day that I was happen many thing in my life....
It might be change my life again.....
BiBi I really felt the happiness you gave me....
especially today you send the msg for me....
I really can't think about that you will sent those msg for me....
And I love the way you msg for me....

today I was a bit unhappy....
Bibi...
you should know why I unhappy for it....
[sorry guy I won't tell you all what happen]
I really scare the problem will happen on me again....
because of the previous trouble....
you let me felt so unsafe...
although you comfort me....
but I still will felt the fear....
can you don't want let it happen again???
cause I really really don't want the previous trouble happen with me again....
I can't accept anymore.....
will you always be with me....
and let my felt that I always under protection with you??
and will keep all the promise what you had told me???

I really have a lot of thing want to tell you from my heart....
But I don't know whether you will listen on my feeling or not.....
I scare you will mad with me because I become like this again....
But I just want let you know what am I thinking about....
What is my feeling right now.....
Felt so suffer with this.....
don't know should I tell you my feeling....
because scare will affect you mood....
I really don't know what supposed I should do now....

I scare until I cry....
because no one will know my feeling now....
it really suffer.....
Tearing all of the night.....

p/s: will you listen to my heart?

♥Time♥

How am I supposed to do>.<

What am I supposed to do???
I feel very complicated NOW!
many bad thing is keep going came to my side....
I feel so stress and suffer with those problem....
I really can't.....
can't handle it!
can't solve it!

Those matter let me tearing this few day....
I scare I will lost everything that I treasure it so much....
especially is YOU!
I know I always let you worried....
but I never think about that I will always like that.....
I really can't control my emotion....
But I will do my best to change away this bad attitude....
because I don't want again an again let you felt disappointed with me!
I know I always let you felt worried because of my emotion....
BiBi I feel so sorry to you because of my bad emotion.....
And you always keep abide with my emotion....
Sorry...

BiBi....
now recently you with friend almost all the time.....
not that I want to blame you....
I just wanna to tell you what I need from you....
just please don't forgot about me....
I still needs your accompany.....
I still needs your care.....
I still needs your Love.....
I still needs your support....

BiBi♥♥♥
please give sometime for me and you!
Although we had been together almost 2 year...
but we still need give sometime for us to date or other to raise up our ♥LOVE♥!
BiBi....
You also know how much I treasure with our relationship....
You know that I won't easily to give up our matter....
Bi♥♥♥
you know why???
Because I treasure every moment with you!!!
I hope and I wish I can be your last girl friend....
and be your Wiffy ♥FOREVER♥....
BiBi♥♥♥
Can I???

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

p/s: I ♥ you not because of who you are
but because of who I am when I am with you.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Neglecting my Blog Badly>.<

Hi, people=)
I'm Neglecting my blog so badly>.<
Because I keep rushing my assignment.
Still left 5 Assignment and need to submit on next week.
So this few day I keep rushing n rushing my Assignment=(
Because of this let me become Psycho and EMO......

I know this few day lack of updates.....
sometime I feel want to blog......
but when I rushing my assignment I really don't have any mood to blog it.......
and just will let me feel more confusing and complicated on my mind.....
Actually I have lots of say but still I choose to be quiet.
Ok la,
just drop by to tell you guys I'm still alive and I'm fine here.
but sometime might be can let me feel more relax after I blog it........
Guy izzit sound confusing on my situation now???
haha...
[Laugh Out Loud]

Yup!!!
It is sound confusing on ME!!!

Anyway,
This is gonna be short....
Assignment, assignment and assignment....
I busying with my assignment.....
Need to interview some more....
Why those assignment so trouble some....
I know I can't blame anything cause this is my future...
and I had the responsibility to achieve it>.<
And now I'm having a real tough thing to decide which actually ruin my mood so badly....
Bless me ya=)
Will be updating soon.....
Stay tuned ya=)

Back to assignment mode>.<

I misssss you so much my ♥sweet heart♥
I won't make you feel upset any more cause I know what I want
I want U happy
I want U smile

I PROMISE
You is the only one and last one in my life
I have to control and do not self-willed
I know that you are sincere to pay out for my
Even if you aware something wrong also keep into the deep heart
But pls don't keep any secret in your heart
Cause I don't want both of us have any misconstrue
Because this might cause us unhappy
Be Honest to ♥Me n You♥

Terrible Mood

always easily get EMO!!!

morning....
sorry guy....
cause I haven't update my blog yesterday....
I will update as fast as possible.....
Cause some of the photo is on My Bf there....
so need to wait him to upload to Lappy 1st....

ok.....
back to the topic that I want to post now....
now my mood is terrible DOWN!
from yesterday until now.....
because some of the reasons....
I hate the feeling that I having NOW!
Let me can't breath....
how can I let go this feeling.....
cause it's really kill me......
Long time I don't have those feeling.....
but now is appear again.....
Why???
Why those feeling must come to find me.....
Can You disappear on my life???
I really suffer with this feeling.....
Really make me want to give up everything....
but I know when I give up I will Loss everything that I having now...
So now I really cannot give up like that for those SUCK feeling.....

Angel, you must be strong....
cannot let those feeling to defeat you!
If not You will regret for your whole LIFE!!!

p/s: pls don't hide any truth with me....
cause I have the way to know about the things....
This is my last warning....
pls behave....

Wanna be Quiet

How am I look???
♥Silly or InNocent♥

My blog will grow spider web soon....
because I less come here and updates my blog.....
Started become Lazy day by day......
a lot of assignment need to do...
but I really don't have any mood to start my assignment....

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

my mood was very bad today....
easy to get EMO recently.....
don't know how many time I get EMO already....
I hate this feeling....
I just wanna a peaceful life.....
I felt that I really hard to get this kind of life.....
I start to hate my life now.....
A lot of resentment!!!!
Many Devil and Vile Character is surround me again!!!
I really hate YOU!!!
Please Leave me alone!!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥xBiBiAngelx♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Now I Started don't want to talk with other.....
wanna be alone.....
Because felt everyone very hypocritically!!!
So I really don't want this kind of people close to me....
because I felt really annoyed.....
Just don't want them annoyed me!!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I know sometime I might be let people think I'm too supercilious when I not smiling!!!
Maybe that's my personality when I'm not smiling!!!
One thing that I can sure is I really not this kind of Girl!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Evil please go way from my side!!!
I really not need your accompany!!!
Leave Me Alone!!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

OK!
I think I should continued do my LAW Assignment!!!
bye guy!!!
Tomorrow need to learn NEW thing=)

p/s: I getting Crazy because all the Evil surround me!!!
TOmorrow need to start my another Journey
♥I Miss My BaBy Boy♥

I'm NOT.............

I'm NOT!!!

I'm not the who are always in the silly....
I also know some of the true....
I just pretend don't know only.....
because I don't want to think more....
although I tell myself don't think too much....
but when I alone at my room face with the wall I will feel lonely and think many matter....
I'm not the person who always like stupid or innocent...
maybe my face will let you all look like innocent.....
for last time,
I think I was this kind of person....
but now won't!!!
because at previous happen many matter....
And let me know many things....
From there,
I learn a lots....
And let me become more sensitive with everything.....

I started don't want to think so many matter....
because just will let me feel sad and disappointed only....
So start from now on I won't think any more...
I just wanna have a simple and happiness life with you only!!!!

Everything that I told you is true!
I told you just want to inform you that I knew everything!
I'm not purposely to told you!
I just want to let you knew my feeling!
Sorry that I let you worried again!!!

my birthday is coming....
wish I have romantic celebration with YOU!!!

♥Heart You♥
♥Our Passion of LOVE♥
♥muacksss♥

p/s: Remember what you had promise with me!!!
♥Love You always♥