what the Moodiness day again>.<

I really can't imagine recently what am I doing for...
cause NoW I really emo like SHIT!!!!!

*WTH mood*
*emo Like SHIT*

Today argue with him again...
really don't know why recently I just keep argue with him...
small matter also argue...
Not that I don't want to trust you...
but it's really confuse me....

I really can't guess what your mind is thinking...
Not that i don't want to think...
just I really don't know....
I feel that I giving you too many pressure...
I know that you really suffer with my sentiments n moodiness...
I know that I always annoying you...
but I also not purpose to annoying you...
Just that I feel lonely...
I feel unsafely...
I just want you care me n pay more attention with me...

I know that I always do many nonsense things let you insane...
cause I really need you...

today we argue about trust...
I cry again....
izzit trust gone...
or is my own problem...
I think I should self-criticism myself before I talk to with you......
Darling...
Sorry that I do so many stupid matter to you...
But 1 think I really can conform that is....
that is you are the 1 who are important in my whole life!!!!

*BiBi I LOVE You Forever*♥muacksss♥~~~

p/s:如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你要的借口；或是忽远忽近的洒脱是你要的自由，那我宁愿....猜不透，越是在乎的人越是才不透...

feel very sleepy now...

*my sleepy lOok*
felt very sleepy now...
cause I can't sleep at all yesterday...
maybe because I really miss my darling...
really can't wait to see him...
don't know why recently I felt that I always let him feel troublesome...
maybe because of somethings that I did for he or he did for me....

Now...
I miss my bear so much...
can't sleep without bear la...
bear where are u...
searching for you la...
I wanna bring you back again...
if not I totally can't sleep...

*Ah Bear n Me*
Bear Bully me>.<

p/s: really need your [HubByBoswell] hug!!!

Unhappy day....

Today I just finish my Business Writing presentation....
but suddenly I heard about your news...
I really felt sad because of this...
not that I don't want to trust you...
just I don't know how I want to control my emotion when I heard about it...
I really felt sad and moodiness...

I will felt sad because I really care about you...
I care about you because I really Love with you...
So I just will felt sad...
I really cry for this...
cause you promise me that you won't hide any thing with me again...
I just want the true...
izzit really difficult for you???
I don't want that I'm the last person who know those things...
I always cry in front of you because of those things...
Not I like to cry....
It really have reason that why I will cry....
I cry because you hide the true...
izzit LOVE is like that???
Izzit LOVE is hide the true with their lover???
Love need honest, trust, care, love and many....

I really feel moody....
I don't want this anymore...
cause really suffer to me...
always let me scare....

HubBy can you don't want hide any matter again to me...
Our relationship is really hard to build up...
I really don't our relationship spoil again....
I really treasure with our relationship...

p/s: 我真的很害怕会再次的失去你...让我们的爱一直的走下去好吗???

I'm so Nervous NOW....Help me~~~

Omg...
Tomorrow is my Presentation day le...
I really afraid about it...
cause this time is Individual presentation....
so afraid la...
how....
who can tell me how to wipe out all this feel....

ok la...
I don't know what I want to tell you all la...
cause now my mind is totally BLANK!!!!!!!!

p/s: help me~~~~~~~~~

Surpries day from HIM

today I really felt surprise....
cause he suddenly give me surprise...
I tot he will come back on Sunday night...
So I blame him a lot....
Cause I can't meet him...
and miss him a lot....
But...
Today when I just came back from my dad hometown...
I just reach home he suddenly sms to me told me that he outside my house and want me came out...
I tot he just joking with me...
But I also go out to see izzit is true...
I really can't believe my eye...
cause I really saw him outside my house...
at that moment I really felt happy...
cause he really appear in front of me....

when I go in the car...
I saw something that I like it so much...
that's Bear Bear...

this New bear bear name's "da tou大头"
also the new member for my Bear Bear Family...^^

I really love it so much....
He buy this "da tou"for me cause he know that I recently really stress and moodiness...
so he buy this bear to let me happy...

see...so cute....
here is me and "da tou"

♥cute cute♥

♥Me n "da tou"♥

♥"Da Tou n Angel"♥

I really want to thanks my Darling...
cause he really love dearly me....
I will treasure everything he gave me....
and he let me have the biggest bear bear family....
♥Happy Happy Happy♥
*wink*

P/S: HubBy...♥I LOVE You♥ muacksss

xoxo

from now on...

from now on I start to missing my Darling...
I really miss him like crazy...
now I need to wait until monday just can meet my Darling...
cause now he at JB with he mummy attend some course...
I really miss him so much....
every time when he not beside me...
I really feel moody....
and feel unsafely...
I hate this feel....
I hate this feel very much...
every time when I know that he got things to do can't accompany me I will feel moodiness...
and feel don't want to talk to you...
just like today morning...
cause I know when I talk to you I will cry non-stop...
Darling I really feel sad when you not beside me...

Now I just wait my Darling come back to KL....
I will hug him tightly when my darling come back...
cause I really miss him...
I miss he every moment with me....

p/s: waiting the moment....

Mummy Happy Birthday

Today 3-4-2009 is my lovely mummy birthday...
me and my dad secretly go to buy birthday cake to mummy...
my mum felt surprise because she totally forget her birthday...
she really happy cause we still remember her birthday...

this is tiramisu me and my dad buy for my mummy^^
mum..
I wish you happy...
Happy Birthday Mummy
I love you always=)

p/s: mummy I Love you...

Needed Part-Time Event Job...

Guys...
anyone can recommended me part-time job at weekends...
cause I really need part-time job to earn more money...
recently I really have some financial problem...
haiz...
money money where are u???
I need you....>.<
hope you guys can recommended some job for me=)

p/s: god...give me some money...I really needs more money...

Finally Done^^

haha...
feel relaxed now....
cause I finally done my Business Writing Assignment...
next Monday still need to present for this assignment report...
haiz...
need to do slide again....
why all of the assignment so troublesome....
whatever la...

recently I really can't play anymore...
because of....
because of my final exam is coming...
next Saturday 11 of April 2009 is my 1st exam...
at 1st day,
I need to sit for 2 paper...
that is the Stupid Moral and Malaysia Studies paper...
I really hate this 2 subjects...
anyway la...
Now I just need time to study for my final...
really don't know I can handle it or not...
I really worry about my final exam....
because this semester I really did not put any effort...
I really scare I can't score it...
very worried about my result...
haiz...

p/s: god...pls help me...I need your help...

emo>.<

Suddenly having BAD mood now...
maybe because of him...
sometime I really feel tired with my emotion...
cause it really easily get emo...

I really hate myself....
cause Now I really emo-ing like SHIT!!!!
hate Hate haTe hAtE....

How I just can Happy all the time???
anyone know???
I don't want depression anymore...
cause it really kill ME!!!

really suffer with this kind of feeling...
izzit those evil like to accompany me...
like to let me feel emo and moodiness always!!!
EVil I hate You....

Now I just wanna have tranquil live with my Mr.Right...
and I don't want anyone who are always like to talk behind me talk about my weakness...
I know that I have many weakness...
I also try to revise my weakness....
But don't you felt that you also have your own weakness....
Cause everyone sure have their own weakness not only that I have....
when you want to talk about people weakness...
you should think about yours 1st....

So before you want to say about my weakness pls think about yourself 1st....

p/s: my emo really killing me....>.<